why?

yay!2 exams over....arrggghhh!3 more to go!!oh man...i just can't wait until all these exams are finally over...the fundemental reading exam was okay!i felt that i did quite well...it was quite easy actually, although some questions were tricky but i managed to answer it after reading the passage over and over again until i get the meaning..i just hope that my answers were correct...i don't know about the introduction to literature exam tomorrow though...im not really prepared for it, apa lagi the college grammar exam on thursday!haihhh...why..why..why..anyone has suggestions on how to love grammar more??how can this be?im an english major yet i dislike grammar to the bone..well not exactly to the bone, im just exaggerating here...but, yes..i dislike grammar..have been since i was in highschool..i mean, why do we have to learn the rules when we know how to speak the language?no matter what kind of english we speak - manglish, singlish, american english, british english, thai english, cambodian english, vietnamese english - we can still understand each other..well..sometimes lah..at least that's what i learned in my linguistics class...dr. paul doesn't have any problem understanding the variety of english that is spoken here in mc...oh well...i guess that's just part of being an english major, a major that i never had the intention to major in, seriously....after college grammar, there will be advanced grammar!i'll probably fail terribly in advanced grammar..nahh..im exaggerating again...but, who knows?ok..ok...i'll stop complaining...but if any of you have any suggestions to offer me on how to learn to love grammar, please do so...im desperate!!

these are questions that i often ask myself on learning grammar: why is grammar so hard? (well, at least for me lah), why is it difficult for me to love grammar? when will i ever learn to master all the rules of grammar? and a few more others...there, im starting again...ok, i'll really stop...why???ok..ok...i'll stop and put a period before my fingers type that word again...wh:)...there, much better replacing it with a smiley instead....