I am too blessed to be stressed...

i wonder if the statement up there is still valid for me these days. i try not to be stressed, but sometimes i just can't avoid it. what am i? i'm just an ordinary person renting a part of this world, i'm of no superpower or anything like that to avoid such situations. but, as one of my lecturer said, "you'll definitely have bad times in one part of your life, if you learn to face those bad times positively, you will be stronger in facing any other situations later in life." is that true? i don't know. but i kinda took a liking to what he said. everytime i think of the situation im in, i am reminded of other people who are in a situation worse than mine. so for now, i think i'll just try to be positive in facing whatever situations i am in.

my weekend

although i was alone (sort of) this weekend, i felt blessed. i went under the rain last friday. i was on the bike with dolly. we were on our way to go to muak lek and it rained. ahhh. nice, but i missed vespers though. anyways, i walked together with felly and dolly to the church for our practice. practice went well and on our way back to the dorm, as usual, we just couldn't keep quiet, so we sang 'Joshua fit the battle of Jericho'. had a good laugh for the night because of shimona's funny actions while singing that song. and then i was back in my room. i went online and only the dim light accompanied me. i felt so free being in my room all alone. no worries about disturbing anybody, turning on the air con as long as i liked was the best part.

the next morning, woke up at 7.50 and went to the cafe to eat breakfast with joy and dolly. went back to the room and had one hour to prepare before going to the auditorium for practice. the singing went well. and i had fun! before the process cuci kaki, me, felly and joy were waiting for dolly and as i stood there, dr. siriporn and acharn jittapa passed by us, then paused and commented that the song was nice and we sang well. positive comments - that's a start. i not only heard from them but from other people as well. after church, i went back to the dorm and for lunch, me and felly ate noodles. we bercerita until 2 p.m. before she went back to her dorm. at 4 p.m. i went to the science building for violin practice and after that i went for A.Y. with charmaine. the AY program was all about larry king interviewing joni eareckson tada. i liked the show, i admire joni's strength and courage to go on with her life being a quadraplegic. after AY, i called felly and we decided to go out and eat. so the four of us: me, felly, tyler and dustin went to NZ. after eating, we melepak at the student center. "How to Deal" was on HBO so we watched that. i like that movie, haven't watched that since last year, and i was glad it was on HBO last night. we had a good laugh on the scene where halley's grandmother was high!hahaha..:) saturday night wasn't boring at all, at least for me. :)

well, it's sunday and everyone will be back again this evening! yay! being alone is good sometimes, but i am glad i was alone for the weekend. i felt blessed because God was with me and He answered my prayer.

peace.

m a r c h 2 6

the 'smaller' choir's first performance

sempat lagi ambil gambar di depan..hehe..

dze altoz

sonya, me, joy and dolly

joy, felly, and me

dolly, shimona, felly, me and joy

group picture with ruth and her kids..yesterday was their last sabbath here in thailand...

awww...look at isaac and his smile:)..im gonna miss them!

bad day. bad week.

this week really sucked for me! full of stress! and i think today was the climax of it all. i acted really bad in front people, especially my friends. i know that. i realize how im acting. and i know ye who are reading this now agree with me 101%. and i openly apologize for my behaviour and attitude. i really felt like crying, i almost did. there were a few times where the tears almost ran down my cheeks, but i had to hold back those tears. it really hurts trying to hold them back. i talked to my brother, felt a little bit better. i want to call my parents, but i have to wait till next week. i can't concentrate on my studies. go to class everyday just for the sake of going. hearing what the teachers say infront, but not listening. i don't know whether i gained anything educational this week. this is the worst feeling that i have ever felt in college, in fact in my life. i don't know how to react to it. i hate it. i hate my life. i know it's sinful to say that. whatever. my life sucks (at least for now). i don't normally say these kinda words. God, forgive me.

thought for the day

Anyway

People are often unreasonable,
Illogical and self-centered.
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind,
People may accuseYou of selfish motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful,
You will win some false friends
And some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank,
People may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building,
Someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness,
They may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today,
People will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have,
And it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you have anyway.

You see, in the final analysis,
It is between you and God;
It never was between you and them anyway.

~Mother Teresa~

fun!

last nite was one great nite! got the chance to eat lots of pizza, but my stomach only managed to menampung 5 slices. sheessh. the variety of pizzas that were made were all so very delicious! haven't had pizza for quite a long time, so last nite, i really had a blast! after all those pizza, it was time for ice cream! chocolate icecream!!! me favourite of all times!after the eating session, it was play time! one group played scrabble and the other group played phase 10. fun. laughter. lots and lots of them! i'm definitely in the choir next semester!:)

Saturday nite fun!

Saturday. March 19. Apartment D3. Alto Section. Pizza. IceCream. Scrabble. Phase Ten.

mmmmmmm....pizza!!:)

those three dots are the tails of glow worms. glow worms? i never knew there were such things as glow worms.

after eating, we played Phase 10...

while they played scrabble.

the guy who skipped me twice..hahah

dj enjoying the game.

group pic:)

aichii and the girls. is he in the alto section? nah...dj picked him up somewhere. hahah.:)

ate 5 rounds of delicious pizzas!!! really had fun!:)

today...

today was not bad. some good things happened to me, and that would show an improvement to my mood. last night i called home. i wanted to talk to my parents, but only my dad was still awake, so i talked for quite a long time with him. and this afternoon, since my mom was already sleeping last night when i called, i decided to call her. and before i ended our conversation, the line went dead - in the middle of her sentence. i was on the third floor of the admin building, went down to the mart and bougt a refill card and called back. i hate to leave the conversation just like that with no proper ending. it's always a good feeling to be able to talk to my parents! i miss them so very much! i want to go HOME!!another four months before i get to go back home. patience. patience.

on the other hand. i got to chat with an old friend just a few minutes ago. yay! we haven't been in touch for 6 months, so there was so much to catch up. we didn't chat for long because he said he had to do some weights and go to bed, otherwise if he stayed longer, he'll break his routine. it was 11 p.m. in australia when he logged off.

well. that was today. i don't know what will happen tomorrow. i hope everything's gonna be just fine. i hope.

phlog or not?

mmmhhmmm...it's 2 a.m. im sleepy on the outside, but i can't sleep on the inside. well, whatever that means. today was great! sang in a choir again after 2 years of not singing in a choir! and i got to stand on the bench!hahaha. posted below are the pictures of what happened today, or should i say yesterday. those are just some of the pictures. too much to post in one go, so i decided to post those first for now. i should be writing more, rather than posting pictures everytime. is opening a phlog account a good idea? what do you think? well. i better stop now. need to get some sleep, going to saraburi tomorrow! yay!! miskin pun miskin lah...mau juga turun..heheheh...

me and my beloved brother:)

farrel and felly Gara & julie and juji Lamam

"inseparable beings"...me and DJ...

MC Choir...Mr. Gerald Schafer on the piano..and...

his wife, Tanya, our choir director

dze malaysians...

muslim?

awww...look how lebat baby isaac's hair is...congrats Ruth and Kenny for this new addition...eheeh...sooo cute!:)

deanna, me and the ever-smiling baby:) 

blessings..

there's been an improvement in me this week, i guess..i hope so. mid-term test papers were given back. i was quite impressed with myself. i was satisfied with my mid-term tests. being stressed with other things asides from studies during the mid-term week wasn't easy but i've proved to myself that i was able to overcome it and do well in my tests. i try not to let stress control me because as what was stated on the little piece of paper handed out during the week of prayer last month, it said 'I am too blessed to be stressed'.

things are going on quite well for me now. somehow some things that i've prayed for and dreamt of is all falling into place right now. God doesn't answer prayers instantly, all you have to do is wait patiently and you will be rewarded for your patience in Him. that's what i personally feel right now, rewarded for my patience for all that is happening to my life right now.

well. moving on. these pictures were taken last saturday. hope you'll enjoy them. will be posting more some time soon. i hope.

saturday nite happenings

it was a windy saturday afternoon...just finished eating at NZ


looking at darran's pictures outside the dorm


saw this pic on one of the photo albums. i don't even remember when this pic was taken, probably last year. love this pic though:)


me, fiona and deanna in front of the dorm before the shooting game started


team #1 - yvonne and felly


team #2 - lorena and ivonne



hmm...could this be team #3?...peace, bebeh!



defeated...


yvonne and daron after the game...what's with that goggles?


ahahahhaha....just playing around with the camera after the game...yvonne, the celebrity of the night, sporting a jeans jacket and....goggles!!we're all her loyal fans..:)


cold saturday night...lying down in the middle of the football field, looking at the stars while the shooting game went on...


hmm...:)

bla..bla..bla...

last week was not a good week for me. i don't know why. i know i acted ****** towards certain people - whether it be online or on campus. i don't know why i was like that. i just felt that everything was just not right for me. i guess im just thinking about a lot of things that happen recently. man, i really need a break from thailand or better yet, from this campus itself, and from studies! im still not willing to share what i have inside me that makes me feel like this to my friends, although at times i am tempted to, but no. i just want to get out. right now, i feel like i just want to go back to sabah, and just sit in front of the tv the whole day - or play with my dogs :). i cannot guarantee that i will go back to myself in the next few days. there are some things that keep disturbing me inside me poor head. im just not myself. at least for now.

why?!

hmm..first thing first..the first practice of the so-called mc chamber choir (we have yet to come up with a name). it was fun altogether. the songs were nice, and challenging. fast ones and slow ones. being able to sight read is really an advantage in being in this group. it's all about being able to learn new songs really fast. last nite, for example, gerald just played through each parts once, and it all depends on us to be able to sing the right notes. hard. but fun! had some pretty good laughs last nite while we were discussing about the dress design, color, etc. and also the name for the group. some of the names were 'rojak', 'the la la lerz', 'rainbow', etc... those are all meant for good laughs. hahaha. i mean, come on, 'rojak'??ngakss!!

well. on the other hand. i just learned of the passing of my friend's dad in the philippines. im shocked. im sad. i don't know what else to say. what more them. i just feel sorry for her, and sent her my condolence, that was all i could do, being here in thailand and not being there. i hate these kinds of happenings. but it's all a part of our life. that's why when these sort of thing happens, the first word that pops in my mind is 'why?!'...why!!arrrggghhh...

happenings...

boy was today fun!!i went to osoko with the gurls! yay! oh, remember the previous post where i said osoko this year was boring? well, it was the opposite tonight! i guess because it was saturday night. we started our night by playing the bumper cars! man, the impact of the bump was damn hard! boleh dapat kerosakan otak! i had fun though, 20 baht per ride, and it was about 5 minutes! i had fun bumping into people i know as well as strangers. amidst all this, a miracle happened. fiona forgot her wallet on the car she used, and we panicked! the others checked the cars, but her wallet was no where to be found. to make the story short, deanna spotted ton and they informed the police about it. the next thing i knew, she got her wallet back! whoever turned in her wallet at the counter or whatever you call it, is really an honest person. that person didn't even get the money inside, everything was still intact. prayers answered. the power of prayer is great, don't underestimate it.

well, after that, everyone was back to normal. so, we ate dinner at a stall. all of us. felly's treat on her 21st birthday. after eating, we went our separate ways. stopped at many different stalls. well, i don't know how much i spent, but i know it wasn't too much. felly bought a ring for me, which has my name inscribed on it. it was cheap but that's not a problem. it's a friendship ring. she bought one for herself and one for deanna too. and then i bought this necklace, and gantungkan my ring on it. pretty cool, i love it. the other things i bought was bracelets (again:)), some clothes and a keychain (i like collecting key chains!), and a pair of sandals for my mom. yup. i didn't spend much. i'm happy. oh, about the hamster thingy, i almost wanted to buy it, but i guess not this time though.

okay, enjoy the pictures.

OSOKO...this time it was fun!

yep!that's me, caught in action...hehehe...yay for bumper cars!was really fun!

and that's my brother..:)..feldinand on the other side

charmaine and lorena

laura and jiap..i kept bumping onto these two girls, kalau bukan diorang, si charmaine and tina...hehehe

uh-huh..this was the wallet fiona almost lost!luckily she got it back in one piece!

this was our dinner - a bowl of noodles..it actually tasted good but mee sup tamparuli is still the best!

yup...all of us..

i almost wanted to buy 2 of them...almost...

me and felly..

this was the guy who did the rings..

keychains!got this for only 10 baht each..nice:)

cowboys??nahhh...