bad day. bad week.

this week really sucked for me! full of stress! and i think today was the climax of it all. i acted really bad in front people, especially my friends. i know that. i realize how im acting. and i know ye who are reading this now agree with me 101%. and i openly apologize for my behaviour and attitude. i really felt like crying, i almost did. there were a few times where the tears almost ran down my cheeks, but i had to hold back those tears. it really hurts trying to hold them back. i talked to my brother, felt a little bit better. i want to call my parents, but i have to wait till next week. i can't concentrate on my studies. go to class everyday just for the sake of going. hearing what the teachers say infront, but not listening. i don't know whether i gained anything educational this week. this is the worst feeling that i have ever felt in college, in fact in my life. i don't know how to react to it. i hate it. i hate my life. i know it's sinful to say that. whatever. my life sucks (at least for now). i don't normally say these kinda words. God, forgive me.